To call him handsome was a misnomer; he was pretty. A delicate face, a somewhat chiseled chin, warm brown eyes, always clean shaven and looking slightly younger than his twenty-something years. He had the grace of an old time actor. Cary Grant in leather pants.
The room was large, low ceilinged, all black and red in some budget approximation of chinoiserie. Black lacquered chairs and overstuffed embroidered couches. Gold dragons on the walls and paper lantern hanging from the ceiling.
The crowd was riding the line between a kink party and sex party. As I walked around and eyed the pretty boy it struck me that we’d all become disconnected from the vanilla world. As I watched friends kiss and play kinky games and fuck out in the open, I thought how normal it all seemed to me and how shocking it might be to someone else.
I fell into a pile of five or six half naked people on a couch, which included the pretty boy. There was something of an excuse in our numbers. The legs and arms and lips all around us made it less threatening. Still my proximity to him felt forbidden. He sat with his arms draped around two women and his legs spread open. The bulge at his crotch made my throat tighten.
He smiled at me as I pressed into a buxom girl with huge lips and thickly made up eyes next to me, the one I’d seen get fucked a few minutes before. I met her gaze for a minute and her face was flush, her eyes flirting. She leaned in and kissed my neck, pulling me forward. My hand landed on his leg for support.
He was kissing a pretty blond with a pixie cut and bright blue eyes who then turned and kissed me, her mouth still wet from his. My eyes locked with his as her whiskey flavored tongue swirled in my mouth.
His hand touched mine and he moved it up and up his leg and I felt like I was hyperventilating into the blonde girl’s kiss. With one final nudge my hand was on his leather covered cock. I felt the outline, the familiar hardness.
I stopped kissing the blonde and she moved closer to me, her eyes on my hand and a low lusty groan escaping her lips.
"You should suck his cock," she whispered in my ear and I was scared. My face felt hot and my heart was pounding. It was a fear that was ground deep into my being.
He laughed, a sweet boyish laugh.
"You should," he agreed with a mischievous smile and a squeeze of my hand.
Then the blonde turned and started opening his pants. I was unsure, but I couldn’t turn away. Buttons and a zipper and squirming to pull down the tight black material and then there is was, thicker than I expected. It looked huge, actually.
He laughed again and then groaned as the blonde leaned over and slipped a pink tinged condom that seemed to appear from thin air. Then she slipped the fat cock between her lips, her eyes closing and his head going back.
I was forgotten as she took it into her mouth and her body started the smooth cycle of up and down.
I watched, unsure who I was more jealous of. I bit my lip wondering if I had the courage to ask for my turn. I thought about how it would feel against my lips.
The girl with the kohl rimmed eyes moved in and clawed her nails across my chest.
"You want to suck it, don’t you," she growled into my ear.
I fell into her kiss and we watched the blonde girl suck the pretty boy off.
I promised myself, next time. Next time.
Somewhere in between dreams I heard the shower start.
Opening my eyes some time later I found myself bathed in gray light coming through white linen curtains. Then I watched the naked legs of a woman in a towel walking back and forth in front of me as I laid on my side trying to decide whether I was awake or not. Occasionally those legs were followed by a nervous black cat who batted at the towel.
There were the distant smells of coffee, shampoo, perfume, and all those sweet feminine scents I associated with her.
For a few moments sleep took me again, like an undertow dragging me into the waves.
Seconds or minutes or hours later I awoke with a start and sensed her near. She was far less nervous than the cat.
There was something remarkable about the transformation she made when nude. In the street she put so much thought into her clothes, her glasses, her stompy boots and affectations. Buttons on her messenger bag proclaimed various affiliations; political, musical, sexual, and comic. Her layers spoke volumes, from sarcastic t-shirts to exposed garter belts. Her fishnets, her lipstick, her leather, all calculated to tell particular stories.
Naked she only had her charm and tattoos to explain herself. My eyes hunted for clues even though I knew her well. On one of her thighs that I saw the light purple bloom of a bruise that I didn’t give her. From some reason it made me hard.
I remembered slapping her ass the night before and the way she liked to wrestle with me teasing me until I was hard, then she shook her head “no” with a smile.
“You have to take it,” she whispered, breathy and playful.
I let myself fall into the memory, letting it turn into a little dream, before I awoke once more to her standing over me, naked, with a cup of coffee.
Her breasts were large and heavy and glorious. Her skin was somewhere around the shade of coffee with too much milk. Her nipples were Belgian chocolate. There was no hair between her legs, but there had been the night before. She was gut wrenchingly beautiful.
She was holding my coffee mug and she was holding it just a little too far for me to reach. She took a sip, sighed and put it on the nearby dresser. Her smile was both mischievous and knowing.
"Will you be good for me?" she asked sweetly, though her tone had more than a little demand in it.
"Probably," I admitted.
She frowned for a moment, considered my answer, then leaned down as if she were going to kiss me and instead took my right hand in hers. She squeezed it once, then pulled it up. I let my arm go slack as she guided my hand to the corner of the mattress. She then leaned over me and I barely registered what she was doing as her breasts pressed softly against my chest.
The handcuffs were still latched on to the bedposts where I’d left them the night before when she’d been tied down and hurt, the way she’s explained she wanted to be. Then she was fucked, the way she begged to be.
When she clicked shut the first cuff on my wrist, I raised an eyebrow. She gave me innocent eyes; I yawned. She lazily walked around the bed and pulled my other hand into the other handcuff. Then she made her way to the foot of the bed and found the rope I’d left there. I looked down, straining my neck a bit as she tried to approximate the knot I’d made around her ankles a few hours before. I wasn’t sure how accurate it was, but I couldn’t pull my legs apart.
With my legs tied together, then bound to the foot of the bed and I laid there, testing all of my bonds, feeling a bit like Jesus reclining, arms stretched.
She pulled the blanket and the sheet off of me and I felt, suddenly, a bit out of my element. She looked down at me with her hands on her hips, naked, smiling, planning.
“Are you ready to earn your coffee?” she said with a challenging glint in her eye.
“It’ll be cold by then,” I answered calmly.
She rolled her eyes and knelt on the bed next to me.
The slap, to be honest, was a little too hard and a little too close to my ear. The world swam and spun for a moment.
Then she leaned down and kissed me hard and hungry. She slipped a hand into my hair and pulled me into her kiss. She sucked at my bottom lip, slipped her tongue deep into my mouth, bit my chin. Then she was suddenly off me and my gasped for air for a moment.
When she came back and put one knee down on my arm the pain was dull and and my body tensed with desire. She knew my secret want. Alright, it wasn’t very secret at all, but it wasn’t something I got very often. It wasn’t something I let myself sucumb to most of the time.
She swung her other leg over me and settled down so that she was straddling my chest, just below my neck. She put her hands in my hair again and looked down at me.
Her skin was cool and smooth from the various fancy soaps and creams I’d seen her apply the many mornings I’d slept over her place. She looked down on me with the look of someone inspecting a pet.
“You’ll be a good boy or I’ll only sit on your face and not your cock afterwards,” she said moving forward a little until her pussy was just inches away from my lips.
“I know you want to lick it, but just think of how nice it will feel when its dripping wet and sinks down on your cock,” she said a bit breathlessly, her own words getting her off.
Then she pushed herself up a little, the pain where her knees were on my arms intensified a bit, but then the pain and everything else was gone and it was just her pussy on my mouth and the taste of her.
There are things I’ve done that pull me in other worlds, but there under her I went to one of the most specific and interesting places I’ve gone. Time stopped and my ever wandering mind focused. All there was in life was her smooth pussy on my mouth and my tongue straining to slip into her. All there was in life was the need to please her, to find her clit and find the angle that would make her squirm and moan.
She took my hair in her hand again and guided me. For a second or two she let her weight press down on my face and cover my mouth completely, then it was all wetness and the building anxiety of suffocation. I squirmed and moaned into her and she held my hair harder, pressing down again and riding my mouth as my lungs burned from lack of air.
When she let me go I gasped for air, but just long enough to get enough oxygen so I could keep licking and sucking at her. Just enough air to keep going.
Looking up I saw her head fall back a bit, her white teeth biting her own full bottom lip. She held my hair with one hand and squeezed her right breast with the other.
I found the little cycle that seemed to make her moans go up an octave. I slipped my tongue around her clit as she pressed down on me, circled it around and around and then pushed my tongue deep inside of her. She sort of road my tongue a few times, then I moved back to her clit. We followed that recipe over and over until she groaned and leaned forward, putting both hands on my head.
“Don’t stop,” she said, then loud enough to echo through the room, “don’t you fucking stop.”
Then I was drowning in her again, her thighs tight on the sides of my head and my mouth and nose covered by her as she came on my face.
It went on and on until my hands were fists and my chest was on fire. An instinctive and biological fear too over me as my body begged for breath. When she finally pulled off of me my whole face was wet from her and my eyes stung for tears from trying to breath.
She slid down my body and kissed my lips and my face and whispered “good boy, good boy,” and I was in a heaven it is hard to explain. I felt used and aroused beyond believe and very much like a good toy for this beautiful woman.
She slid down further until she was straddling my waist. When my cock, which was so hard it hurt, came in contact with her body I jumped; as much as I could while being bound.
“You want me to fuck you now?” she said with a cocky happy grin.
“Yes,” I said, my voice sounding strange to my ears. It was full of desperation.
“Can you ask? Can you say please, or are you going to be a smartass again?”
The words came before I could even think about them.
“Please, please, fuck me, I need it so badly, please,” I begged.
There was no shame, only surprise at my need. She laughed and I felt her need just as strong as mine.
She pushed down and her wetness slipped against me and my cock was pushed right into the waiting heat of her. I felt like I was going to pass out.
There was still a newness in condomless sex. There was something forbidden in the slickness of her and the hypersensitivity of my cock. We’d been tested, we’d had conversations, she was on the pill, we were aware and secure in our risks.
Still two decades of commercials and fear and gossip made that moment of unencumbered penetration feel so taboo I thought I might come instantly.
She laid against me, her breasts on my chest, and pushed herself down on me hard. I felt, for a moment, so deep inside of her I couldn’t believe it. She ground down on me then, both of us gasping and crying out. The she rode me again, up and down, sitting up a bit on me and letting me watch the please wash over her face and her tits swing inches from my mouth.
She was lost in the rhythm and as much as I wanted to control myself I felt the slick heat enveloping me pulling the orgasm from me and soon the little panic came over me.
The fear was there, knowing even in our protection that coming in her was something bad. My mind wrestled with it even though I knew it wasn’t true. I wanted it to be true. I wanted it to be forbidden and wrong. I wanted to come inside of her and I wanted that to be bad.
The thought, along with the memories of her sitting on my face flashed in my head the way your life is supposed to before you die. Then my body took over.
My wrists burned as I pulled against the handcuffs. My muscles clenched as I thrust up again and again to meet her and then I was coming and coming and she knew it and bared down on me.
“Fill me up, come on, give it to me, give me your come, fuck me, do it,” she yelled into my ear, a barrage of dirty words.
It seemed to go on like that forever, but eventually I was gasping for breath and she was laying on top of me. My cock soft, but still inside of her.
She fumbled with something and I felt one hand freed, then the other. Then I held her and she kissed my neck.
“Tell me that was alright,” she whispered, sounding small and a little broken.
“It was perfect. It was more than perfect. You are amazing,” I said holding her tightly.
“Tell me you love me,” she demanded.
“I do, I love you,” I said and covered her face with kisses.
“I’m not bad?” she said, her voice cracking a little, the cruelty so far removed from her face that I could hardly remember it.
“You’re a good girl. I love you. You are mine. You are perfect,” I said, knowing what she needed and needing it too.
She cuddled into my and held me tightly.
“Thank you,” she said sweetly.
“Thank you,” I whispered back.
We ended up going out for coffee.