Something Borrowed

I looked down at my phone for the hundredth time, then up at the train as it chugged back into its underground tunnel. People rushed to leave and in moments I was alone on the platform, turned on and scared.

“Take the L train to Lorimer, get out and walk two blocks west…” the instructions started.

I got out of the subway station, looking around the foreign streets of Williamsburg or Greenpoint, I wasn’t sure which. There seemed to be nothing but bars, pizza places, and trendy little boutiques.

Everyone on the street looked hip and pretty. I looked down at my somewhat fashionable jeans and my high heels and suddenly I felt a little like Sandy at the end of Grease, but I walked on. I took out my phone again, more as something to do than for information.

I knew what the email said, I’d been reading it over and over all day.

“I have this good friend Brian, I want to lend you to him for the evening. Six to midnight, or when ever he’s done with you. You’re not to stay over. He’ll be safe, he’ll stop if you say “red” and he knows the things that you are not to have done to you. I’ve negotiated for you, so all you need to remember is “red” and that I am giving you to him for the evening,” I read and realized I missed my turn because the words made my whole body hot and confused.

“You’re my good slut and you will fuck and suck my friend. Maybe all of my friends. Maybe even people I hardly know. You’re such a good little slut I can’t keep you all to myself. What kind of person would I be if I didn’t share my favorite toy with my friends?”

He hadn’t even talked to me about it. Well, not really. We’d talking about it in the very theoretical, but we hadn’t actually spoken about the details face to face, which really made me crazy. I should have said no. I knew I could say no. I knew I could say no and I wouldn’t even get punished. He didn’t punish me for saying no to things or even stopping things once I said yes. He punished me when he wanted to hit me, not to train me, just because he liked it.

Reading the words over I got that warm feeling I always got when I read the word “good” next to the word “slut.”

I looked left to right and found the next street I needed to turn on to. I looked to see if anyone was near and then reached down and felt the crotch of my jeans and cursed because I was wet right through the denim.

The apartment was one of those big modern industrial looking deals in the middle of a row of ancient townhouses. I didn’t have room left in my brain to process what I thought about it. I pressed the code from the email into the keypad. The door clicked.

I climbed three flights of stairs and my heart raced the whole time. I didn’t know what the guy looked like. I didn’t know his name. I didn’t even know if he would be alone.

He was waiting with his door open and I only looked him in the eye for a second before looking down at my feet.

He was younger than I thought he’d be. Perhaps five years younger than Jake, which meant five years older than me. He moved aside to let me in, then he closed the door and locked the various locks NY city apartments always seemed to have.

He was a little shorter than me, a bit chubby but in a stocky solid kind of way. He was a brown haired, nondescript, white guy. He was wearing a Columbia sweatshirt and jeans.

He turned and looked me up and down. He stood motionless and looked very much like he was trying not to look nervous.

The apartment was a large studio. One big room with a bed and a couch and a window that looked out on a church. He walked past me and started looking through his drawers.

“You’re going to go into the bathroom and take a shower and shave your legs and your pussy. Shave it completely,” he explained without looking at me.

He opened and closed drawers, throwing things on the bed as he did. There was a clean looking towel, a pair of long socks still in their package, a small plastic bag of hair ties, a bottle of lube, a pack of condoms.

“When you’re done put these socks on, nothing else. They go up all the way to your thighs. Then put your hair in pigtails and come back to the bedroom,” he ordered as he handed me things.

There was a silence then, and I just stood there in this stranger’s apartment as he waited for me to follow his directions.

“Well?” he said expectantly.

The confusion was part of it; the pressure, too. I knew I could drop the stuff and tell the guy to fuck off and leave. Well, I was 99% sure I could do that. The 1% made me wetter than the 99%, honestly.

The shame of being “given” to this guy was like a drug. Actually better than most drugs I’d tried. He could be anyone. I was nothing more than a toy being passed around. I was a little fuck hole that was good enough that my owner thought his friend might like a try me out.

I liked that. I liked that so much. I watched as he eyed me and I could tell he was already hard. He rubbed his crotch through his jeans as he watched me. It was a perverted and completely honest move, something I guessed he would never do in front of someone, even before sex.

And I was going to have sex with him. This stranger. I knew it. So I turned around and headed for the bathroom.

“Wait,” he said and walked up to me.

He stood behind me and reached around me and felt my left breast. He made a little moan as he touched it. There was an almost high school awkwardness in the act. I realized he was probably just as curious and confused with the situation as I was. He was mauling my breast just to see if he could, to see what I would do.

He pulled up my shirt and I let myself be pushed and pulled by him. I stood up straight and let the upper half of my body become as limp as a rag doll. He pulled down the cup of my bra and rubbed my naked breast, pulling on my nipple possessively.

“Jake said you were a complete slut but I wasn’t sure,” he said half to himself.

“Fuck, I can’t wait for you to get out of the shower. I’m going to fuck you like twenty times. I’m going to use every inch of you until I have to give you back,” he growled as he pulled my other tit out of my bra and pulled at it.

He bit his lip, eyes locked on my tits, which made him look like a pervert. I should have been disgusted, but I was shaking with need.

“Take off your pants, I want to see your pussy before you shave it,” he said greedily.

He had the tiniest of a foreign accent I couldn’t place. He looked smart, his apartment was that of a professional computer something or other, lots of books, but there was an edge of Brooklyn bad boy to his voice.

It was weird taking off my pants while trying to hold on to the towel and socks he gave me. I got them off though and he pulled at my panties and then his hand was rubbing my thighs greedily.

“Fuck, you’re soaking wet. Such a fucking whore, fuck I can’t even wait. Why should I? I’ll fuck you fast then you shower and put on the socks for the second round,” he said taking off his belt.

The sound of the belt, as always, made me squirm with want. He didn’t notice. His eyes were still on my tits.

I looked around and saw a chair and dumped the towel and things onto it.

He took me, with my panties still around my ankles, and pushed me onto the bed.

He pushed the condom onto his cock and noisily squirted a glob of lube onto his fingers. He didn’t realize how unnecessary the lube was, but found out when he roughly pushed the cold wet stuff between my legs and into me.

“Jesus, you’re a wet little slut,” he said to himself.

Then he was on top of me and inside of me all at once and he felt thicker than he looked.

There was that newness of a new person, a new cock, a new body on top of me. He was fucking me, hands on my hips, fingers a little too tight, pushing himself deep a little too fast.

“Fucking tight, fucking slut, fuck, I can’t believe Jake just sent you here. Fuck. I’m going to fuck the shit out of you like a hundred times,” he said as he thrusted.

His hands were all over, on my tits, on my ass then up in my hair. As he closed a fist around the back of my hair and pulled the spark of pain made me go to that familiar dizzy place. The way his cock sort of hurt. The way he was pressing onto my clit with every thrust. I want to reach down and rub myself, but something inside of me reminded me that I was just there to get fucked and used. I was a toy. I was a stupid little fuck hole being passed around.

“Please,” I started saying, the embarrassment of dirty talk choking me a little, “please come inside me, sir,” I whispered.

It was a tiny little voice, I was guessing like the pigtailed pretend schoolgirl he was going to dress me up as. In saying it, in using those words with that voice, I was suddenly that girl. I let myself fall into the role. Innocent, stumbling into his big room, powerless as he used me.

He heard me. He let out a long hard gasp. Another “fuck” in the mantra the word had turned into as he pushed deeper into me.

“Fucking not going to take long with your tight, little, fucking, oh, fuck” and then he was thrusting into me hard, in that way guys did when their body just takes over because they’re near coming.

He was shoving me into the mattress hard and I swear I could feel his cock swell as he shot his come over and over.

Then he was next to me, gasping for breath.

“Fuck,” he said again.

“Go,” he said trying to catch his breath, “go shower and get ready,” he gasped, “we got a long evening.”

Then I was walking, past his little kitchen, which was small and minimalist and German looking.

The bathroom was spotless and high tech. The shower was cavernous and I was happy to be under the strong, warm, clean water.

I rubbed my now reddened and humming little cunt. I liked my tuft of brown hair. Jake had let me grow it out and for some weird reason it pleased me. As my fingers passed over the soft hair I wondered why the fact that a stranger was telling me to get rid of the little patch of hair was making my knees weak with pleasure.

I rubbed hard and found my clit then, as the water rained down on me. I liked a lot of pressure. I rubbed hard and thought about how much of a slut I was. I thought about going back out there and letting the little Brooklyn guy with no name fuck me over and over again.

I thought about sucking his thick cock and swallowing every drop of his thick come and I rocked my hips fast and rubbing myself hard and I came. I came all by myself, before I went out to let him use my body again.

Then a washed off my fingers and soaped up my legs and got ready to be a schoolgirl for the stranger who owned me for another five and half hours.

I felt, with every cell of my body, like a very good slut.

Work In Progress

From a work in progress:

"I’m going to fuck you now."

She was face down, hands on the bed, and she turned her head just enough so that he could see one eye and her lips.

"Okay," she whispered.

He reached around her waist and unbuttoned her shorts, pulling them as well as her tights and panties down to her knees. Then he straddled her legs and slipped a hand between her closed thighs, finding her cunt, wet and overheated. He undid his pants and pulled a condom from his pocket while he fingered her. Her arms were spread out to her sides and her hands gripped the bedspread as she raised her ass up to get more of his fingers.

"Bite down on a pillow, this is a family establishment, I don’t want anyone to hear your little slut noises. Do, you understand me?"

She grabbed a pillow and held it to her mouth.

"I asked you if you understood me," he said, punctuating the question with a firm slap on her ass.

She turned her head and glared at him, letting the pillow fall out of her mouth.

"Yes, sir," she said with a hate in her eyes that made him smile.

"I told you not to call me sir," he said slapping her ass again harder.

There were two red hand prints on her white ass and her eyes closed for a moment.

"Yes, Mr. Smith,” she said, pushing her ass further up.

He slapped her ass again and again, holding her in place easy as she writhed and squirmed, falling into lust drunk silence.

He leaned over and grabbed her hair hard.

"Yes, Mr. Smith, what?" he said right into her ear, as loud as he dare.

She bit her lip and struggled against my hand in her hair and my weight on top of her.

"Yes, Mr. Smith I’ll bite down on a pillow when you fuck me, so the nice families next door don’t hear my dirty little slut noises," she whined, enunciating each word with bratty contempt.

“Finally, your figuring it out. Now quiet,” he said as he slipped his cock against her.

“Maybe you shouldn’t slap me so loudly then,” she mumbled as she bit down on the pillow again.

The Collector

Excerpts from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, as collected for the preface of Delta of Venus

April, 1940

A book collector offered Henry Miller a hundred dollars a month to write erotic stories. It seemed like a Dantesque punishment to condemn Henry to write erotica at a dollar a page. He rebelled because his mood of the moment was the opposite of Rabelaisian, because writing to order was a castrating occupation, because to be writing with a voyeur at the keyhole took all the spontaneity and pleasure out of his fanciful adventures.

October, 1941

I gathered poets around me and we all wrote beautiful erotica. As we were condemned to focus only on sensuality, we had violent explosions of poetry. Writing erotica became a road to sainthood rather than to debauchery.

Harvey Breit, Robert Duncan, George Barker, Caresse Crosby, all of us concentrating our skills in a tour de force, supplying the old man with such an abundance of perverse felicities, that now he begged for more.

The homosexuals wrote as if they were women. The timid ones wrote about orgies. The frigid ones about frenzied fulfillments. The most poetic ones indulged in pure bestiality and the purest ones in perversions. We were haunted by the marvelous tales we could not tell. We sat around, imagined this old man, talked of how much we hated him, because he would not allow us to make a fusion of sexuality and feeling, sensuality and emotion.

December, 1941

George Barker was terribly poor. He wanted to write more erotica. He wrote eighty-five pages. The collector thought they were too surrealistic. I loved them. His scenes of lovemaking were disheveled and fantastic. Love between trapezes. He drank away the first money, and I could not lend him anything but more paper and carbons.

George Barker, the excellent English poet, writing erotica to drink, just as Utrillo painted paintings in exchange for a bottle of wine. I began to think about the old man we all hated. I decided to write to him, address him directly, tell him about our feelings.

Dear Collector,

We hate you.

Sex loses all its power and magic when it becomes explicit, mechanical, overdone, when it becomes a mechanistic obsession. It becomes a bore. You have taught us more than anyone I know how wrong it is not to mix it with emotion, hunger, desire, lust, whims, caprices, personalties, deeper relationships that change its color, flavor, rhythms, intensities.

You do not know what you are missing by your microscopic examination of sexual activity to the exclusion of aspects which are the fuel that ignites it. Intellectual, imaginative, romantic, emotional. This is what gives sex its surprising textures, its subtle transformations, its aphrodisiac elements. You are shrinking your world of sensations. You are withering it, starving it, draining its blood.

If you nourished your sexual life with all the excitements and adventures which love injects into sensuality, you would be the most potent man in the world. The source of sexual power is curiosity, passion. You are watching its little flame die of asphyxiation. Sex does not thrive on monotony. Without feeling, inventions, moods, no surprises in bed. Sex must be mixed with tears, laughter, words, promises, scenes, jealousy, envy, all the spices of fear, foreign travel, new faces, novels, stories, dreams, fantasies, music, dancing, opium, wine.

How much do you lose by this periscope at the tip of your sex, when you could enjoy a harem of distinct and never repeated wonders? No two hairs alike, but you will not let us waste words on a description of hair; no two odors, but if we expand on this you cry Cut the poetry. No two skins with the same texture, and never the same light, temperature, shadows, never the same gesture; for a lover, when he is aroused by true love, can run the gamut of centuries of love lore. What a range, what changes of age, what variations of maturity and innocence, perversity and art…

We have sat around for hours and wondered how you look. If you have closed your senses upon silk, light, color, odor, character, temperament, you must be by now completely shriveled up. There are so many minor senses, all running like tributaries into the mainstream of sex, nourishing it. Only the united beat of sex and heart together can create ecstasy.

I doubt she knows how my own words can become little daggers in my heart.

As the I hear the water splash about in the other room, the echoes on tile, the faux innocence at its apex, I consider which weapon I should use.

“Wash up all you like, you’ll still be a dirty little whore when you get out of the tub,” I say as I stand at the door of the bathroom.

She covers her breasts (barely) and bites her pouting bottom lip and I see the drug of humiliation slipping into her veins, as her eyes unfocus and her hips move under the bubbles.

The complexity of it all, the alchemy of power and play. It hurts to shame my little girl, even as I remember her explaining how it turns her on more than anything else.

“I don’t know why I buy you pretty dresses,” I explain as she sits on the bed in a perfect white towel.

“When all you are is a little hole for me to fuck,” I say with my back to her.

I can hear her swallow and make the tiniest whimper as I realize my cock has become as hard as my voice.

Forbidden

"Promise?" she whispered.

Her pink t-shirt was pulled up, as was her bra. Her thick black rimmed glasses were almost falling off and her bangs were in her eyes. Her breasts were big, pert, the imprint of the lace of her bra left pink and red patterns on the soft skin. Their eyes locked and she squeezed one breasts hard as her hips swayed. Her eyes were thickly rimmed around with black makeup and the corner of one eye was smeared.

She was straddling his legs as he laid back on the couch. She moved one hand down and grasped his cock again, biting her lip as she played with it.

"I promise, but you’re the one on top," he said quietly, aware of roommates who might or might not be asleep in nearby bedroom.

"Fuck it’s so hot," she said, spitting on her hand and then pulling on his cock, letting her wet palm twist around it.

"I just want to rub against it a little, I can’t put it in though," she said.

She’d told him they couldn’t go all the way. They could do everything but. He’d been fine with that, she was beautiful and funny and smart and they’d kissed on the couch for hours, teasing and grinding against each other as their clothes came of a piece an hour.

He looked down as she pressed his cock against the bottom of his stomach and then pushed herself up so she was sitting on it. His cock was laying just in-between the lips of her pussy as she moved up and down, grinding her clit against his hardness. He could see the pink lips slipping against the shaft and the white skin of her tan lined crotch contrasting the tan of her thighs and the bright pink of her thigh high socks.

The sight was almost too much. After she rubbed twice against him, he could feel her wetness making their parts slick against each other. Her breath caught when that happened and she leaned down, unable to sit up anymore, as she continued move against him.

Her breasts swung slowly and so he sat up enough to lean over and lick at one nipple. She let out a moan, her nipples being far more sensitive that most women he knew. As he sucked on it she ground down hard on his cock.

A few times, when she leaned back a bit it almost felt like he was going to slip into her, but she always moved back.

"I think I can come like this," she said, her eyes far away as she moved.

He thought he might be able to too, but he didn’t think that was in the rules. He’d have to move her off him if he felt like he was getting close.

She leaned down and kissed him on the lips, her hips moving faster. Her glasses fell off and clattered to the floor somewhere.

Then, suddenly, some angle changed and the head of his cock slipped in. He gasped and she froze. She just hovered there, breathing hard.

"Bad, bad," she whispered to herself and moved enough so that he popped back out.

Then she was rubbing again, a little harder, short motions forward and back. He could feel her hard clit on the shaft of his cock and his whole body was mourning the feeling of slipping into her tightness.

"So close," she said moving faster again.

He felt like the wetness almost doubled as she slipped against him and then she let out a yelp as she moved and his cock slipped in again, this time almost all the way. She groaned and grunted in frustration, but she didn’t move off of him, his cock was still inside.

"We’re not supposed to," she whined, her hands on his chest almost pushing herself off of his cock, but then sinking down a little lower.

"Oh fuck," he groaned, the feeling of her soaked pussy tight around him after so much friction making his whole body tighten.

"It’s so hard," she said pushing down until his whole cock was inside of her.

"We should stop," he whispered, desperately wanting to fuck her.

"Yeah, it’s bad," she said moving up and then down on his cock.

"We’re not supposed to," he gasped, as his hands moved to her hips.

"We’re not-oh fuck-allowed," she said starting to just ride his cock all the way.

He pulled her down on it by her hips and she pushed herself back up pressing her hands against his chest. She was so wet they could both hear the slick sounds of their fucking.

"I’ll stop, just-in one second," she whined.

"Yeah, we should," he said, suddenly thrusting his hips up and grabbing her hips tight.

"Please, please fuck me," she said, kissing him again, her breasts pressing against his chest and her arms slipping around him.

They rolled over on the couch, most of the cushions falling off. Then she was on her back, her legs open wide and he was driving into her.

"Hit me," she said between moans.

Their eyes locked again as he fucked her hard and then taking her face in one hand slapping her hard across the cheek with the other. Then he moved his hand behind her head and took her hair in his fist and drove into her harder while he kissed her.

She was gone then, her eyes unfocused and her pussy tightening around him so hard it hurt.

"Coming-" she mumbled along with a string of incoherent sounds.

He let her come, feeling his own orgasm almost there, but waiting, waiting as the white hot pressure built.

"I’m-" he started and pulled away from her, but she wouldn’t let him. Her legs wrapped around his waist and her hands around his torso.

"No, I’m going to-" he tried but she was moving her hips, pushing his deep inside of her.

"You better not come inside me," she whispered, a dark smile on her lips.

When he came his body was trapped and confused and he felt her tighten round him as he cock shot come into her again and again and he shouted and grabbed at the couch, slamming into her until his muscles were sore and gave out.

Somehow they were on the floor, wet and sweaty, his cock still inside of her.

"That was bad," she whispered.

"So bad," he agreed.

"Horrible," she giggled.

"Dirty and forbidden," he said moving again, his cock starting to harden once more.

"We’re not supposed to fuck, it’s forbidden," she whispered, moving her hips against him.

"You did it," he laughed.

"You came inside me!" she said with a smile, slapping his chest.

"I know, it’s all slippery now," he said, starting to thrust harder.

"Do it again," she said closing her eyes.

Eventually he did. Then they ate ice cream and tried to figure out something else to make forbidden.

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Faux Hunt

The first in a series I call “The Gentleman’s Club” which involve the debaucheries of one John “Randy Jack” Sackville, son of the third Earl of Amherst, and the other members of the Club De Lancey, a London gentlemen’s club.

I’m not sure it makes sense, but I like it.

Without further ado I give you:

The Faux Hunt

Winifred stood proudly in the gray light of dawn. A hair over five feet tall, 7 stone, and barely nineteen years old, she was stark naked save a pair of Jack’s childhood hunting boots and a bright red fox hat, its tail flapping in the wind. She blushed down to her navel and her green eyes burned with fear and excitement.

Jack and the others watched her stand there, her cream skin with nary a blemish nor a freckle was sheened with morning dew. Her smallish breasts were high and pert, the curve of her bottom seemed to jut out at a lurid angle. Her chest heaved and her heart raced from the shame of being naked, the joy of being the savior of the foxes and, if Jack guessed correctly, the wicked thrill of being wildly bad.

She turned, the contrast of the black of the boots against her white skin making her seem even more naked and the bright splash of carrot orange between her legs directing ever eye down to the virgin shadow every man in the hunting party almost painfully longed for.

Norman Gordon-Stanton, tallish, lean, bespectacled and wearing a dark gray hunting suit and deerstalker, took off his gloves to shake Jack’s hand properly.

“An outstanding diversion,” he said clasping Jack’s hand and shoulder.

The other seven men murmured “hear hear!”

Lord Strachey, by far the cruelest among the hunters, took a rifle from his valet and aimed it high into the air and away from the group and the girl. Even though they all knew the sound was coming, every man jumped a bit as the thunderous crack of the shot echoed through the woods.

Winifred jumped at the sound and startled, turned in a flash and ran. The poor thing managed only a few feet before she stumbled and tripped forward, her white knees painted green and red with grass and blood. She waited there for a moment on all fours, like the very game she was proxy for, and unknowingly gave the hunters a view of the pink split peach between her thin legs.

Jack’s hands tightened into fists in his leather gloves and he suddenly felt very good about his marital choice.

After a moment the girl finally got up and without looking back she sprinted into the woods.

Strachey fetched something small and white from his saddle bag. Jack saw it was a pair of his child-bride’s knickers. The cruel man rubbed said garments into the noses of the dogs, which waited as patiently as hounds could.

“They’re good boys, they won’t hurt her,” he promised with a steely glare.

The clubmen held the hounds back as they mounted their horses. They gave the girl a fighting chance, then, after a good fifteen minutes, the horn was blown and they were off.

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The Boy

To call him handsome was a misnomer; he was pretty. A delicate face, a somewhat chiseled chin, warm brown eyes, always clean shaven and looking slightly younger than his twenty-something years. He had the grace of an old time actor. Cary Grant in leather pants.

The room was large, low ceilinged, all black and red in some budget approximation of chinoiserie. Black lacquered chairs and overstuffed embroidered couches. Gold dragons on the walls and paper lantern hanging from the ceiling.

The crowd was riding the line between a kink party and sex party. As I walked around and eyed the pretty boy it struck me that we’d all become disconnected from the vanilla world. As I watched friends kiss and play kinky games and fuck out in the open, I thought how normal it all seemed to me and how shocking it might be to someone else.

I fell into a pile of five or six half naked people on a couch, which included the pretty boy. There was something of an excuse in our numbers. The legs and arms and lips all around us made it less threatening. Still my proximity to him felt forbidden. He sat with his arms draped around two women and his legs spread open. The bulge at his crotch made my throat tighten.

He smiled at me as I pressed into a buxom girl with huge lips and thickly made up eyes next to me, the one I’d seen get fucked a few minutes before. I met her gaze for a minute and her face was flush, her eyes flirting. She leaned in and kissed my neck, pulling me forward. My hand landed on his leg for support.

He was kissing a pretty blond with a pixie cut and bright blue eyes who then turned and kissed me, her mouth still wet from his. My eyes locked with his as her whiskey flavored tongue swirled in my mouth.

His hand touched mine and he moved it up and up his leg and I felt like I was hyperventilating into the blonde girl’s kiss. With one final nudge my hand was on his leather covered cock. I felt the outline, the familiar hardness.

I stopped kissing the blonde and she moved closer to me, her eyes on my hand and a low lusty groan escaping her lips.

"You should suck his cock," she whispered in my ear and I was scared. My face felt hot and my heart was pounding. It was a fear that was ground deep into my being.

He laughed, a sweet boyish laugh.

"You should," he agreed with a mischievous smile and a squeeze of my hand.

Then the blonde turned and started opening his pants. I was unsure, but I couldn’t turn away. Buttons and a zipper and squirming to pull down the tight black material and then there is was, thicker than I expected. It looked huge, actually.

He laughed again and then groaned as the blonde leaned over and slipped a pink tinged condom that seemed to appear from thin air. Then she slipped the fat cock between her lips, her eyes closing and his head going back.

I was forgotten as she took it into her mouth and her body started the smooth cycle of up and down.

I watched, unsure who I was more jealous of. I bit my lip wondering if I had the courage to ask for my turn. I thought about how it would feel against my lips.

The girl with the kohl rimmed eyes moved in and clawed her nails across my chest.

"You want to suck it, don’t you," she growled into my ear.

I fell into her kiss and we watched the blonde girl suck the pretty boy off.

I promised myself, next time. Next time.

Wake Up

Somewhere in between dreams I heard the shower start.

Opening my eyes some time later I found myself bathed in gray light coming through white linen curtains. Then I watched the naked legs of a woman in a towel walking back and forth in front of me as I laid on my side trying to decide whether I was awake or not. Occasionally those legs were followed by a nervous black cat who batted at the towel.

There were the distant smells of coffee, shampoo, perfume, and all those sweet feminine scents I associated with her.

For a few moments sleep took me again, like an undertow dragging me into the waves.

Seconds or minutes or hours later I awoke with a start and sensed her near. She was far less nervous than the cat.

There was something remarkable about the transformation she made when nude. In the street she put so much thought into her clothes, her glasses, her stompy boots and affectations. Buttons on her messenger bag proclaimed various affiliations; political, musical, sexual, and comic. Her layers spoke volumes, from sarcastic t-shirts to exposed garter belts. Her fishnets, her lipstick, her leather, all calculated to tell particular stories.

Naked she only had her charm and tattoos to explain herself. My eyes hunted for clues even though I knew her well. On one of her thighs that I saw the light purple bloom of a bruise that I didn’t give her. From some reason it made me hard.

I remembered slapping her ass the night before and the way she liked to wrestle with me teasing me until I was hard, then she shook her head “no” with a smile.

“You have to take it,” she whispered, breathy and playful.

I let myself fall into the memory, letting it turn into a little dream, before I awoke once more to her standing over me, naked, with a cup of coffee.

Her breasts were large and heavy and glorious. Her skin was somewhere around the shade of coffee with too much milk. Her nipples were Belgian chocolate. There was no hair between her legs, but there had been the night before. She was gut wrenchingly beautiful.

She was holding my coffee mug and she was holding it just a little too far for me to reach. She took a sip, sighed and put it on the nearby dresser. Her smile was both mischievous and knowing.

"Will you be good for me?" she asked sweetly, though her tone had more than a little demand in it.

"Probably," I admitted.

She frowned for a moment, considered my answer, then leaned down as if she were going to kiss me and instead took my right hand in hers. She squeezed it once, then pulled it up. I let my arm go slack as she guided my hand to the corner of the mattress. She then leaned over me and I barely registered what she was doing as her breasts pressed softly against my chest.

The handcuffs were still latched on to the bedposts where I’d left them the night before when she’d been tied down and hurt, the way she’s explained she wanted to be. Then she was fucked, the way she begged to be.

When she clicked shut the first cuff on my wrist, I raised an eyebrow. She gave me innocent eyes; I yawned. She lazily walked around the bed and pulled my other hand into the other handcuff. Then she made her way to the foot of the bed and found the rope I’d left there. I looked down, straining my neck a bit as she tried to approximate the knot I’d made around her ankles a few hours before. I wasn’t sure how accurate it was, but I couldn’t pull my legs apart.

With my legs tied together, then bound to the foot of the bed and I laid there, testing all of my bonds, feeling a bit like Jesus reclining, arms stretched.

She pulled the blanket and the sheet off of me and I felt, suddenly, a bit out of my element. She looked down at me with her hands on her hips, naked, smiling, planning.

“Are you ready to earn your coffee?” she said with a challenging glint in her eye.

“It’ll be cold by then,” I answered calmly.

She rolled her eyes and knelt on the bed next to me.

The slap, to be honest, was a little too hard and a little too close to my ear. The world swam and spun for a moment.

Then she leaned down and kissed me hard and hungry. She slipped a hand into my hair and pulled me into her kiss. She sucked at my bottom lip, slipped her tongue deep into my mouth, bit my chin. Then she was suddenly off me and my gasped for air for a moment.

When she came back and put one knee down on my arm the pain was dull and and my body tensed with desire. She knew my secret want. Alright, it wasn’t very secret at all, but it wasn’t something I got very often. It wasn’t something I let myself sucumb to most of the time.

She swung her other leg over me and settled down so that she was straddling my chest, just below my neck. She put her hands in my hair again and looked down at me.

Her skin was cool and smooth from the various fancy soaps and creams I’d seen her apply the many mornings I’d slept over her place. She looked down on me with the look of someone inspecting a pet.

“You’ll be a good boy or I’ll only sit on your face and not your cock afterwards,” she said moving forward a little until her pussy was just inches away from my lips.

“I know you want to lick it, but just think of how nice it will feel when its dripping wet and sinks down on your cock,” she said a bit breathlessly, her own words getting her off.
Then she pushed herself up a little, the pain where her knees were on my arms intensified a bit, but then the pain and everything else was gone and it was just her pussy on my mouth and the taste of her.

There are things I’ve done that pull me in other worlds, but there under her I went to one of the most specific and interesting places I’ve gone. Time stopped and my ever wandering mind focused. All there was in life was her smooth pussy on my mouth and my tongue straining to slip into her. All there was in life was the need to please her, to find her clit and find the angle that would make her squirm and moan.

She took my hair in her hand again and guided me. For a second or two she let her weight press down on my face and cover my mouth completely, then it was all wetness and the building anxiety of suffocation. I squirmed and moaned into her and she held my hair harder, pressing down again and riding my mouth as my lungs burned from lack of air.

When she let me go I gasped for air, but just long enough to get enough oxygen so I could keep licking and sucking at her. Just enough air to keep going.

Looking up I saw her head fall back a bit, her white teeth biting her own full bottom lip. She held my hair with one hand and squeezed her right breast with the other.

I found the little cycle that seemed to make her moans go up an octave. I slipped my tongue around her clit as she pressed down on me, circled it around and around and then pushed my tongue deep inside of her. She sort of road my tongue a few times, then I moved back to her clit. We followed that recipe over and over until she groaned and leaned forward, putting both hands on my head.

“Don’t stop,” she said, then loud enough to echo through the room, “don’t you fucking stop.”

Then I was drowning in her again, her thighs tight on the sides of my head and my mouth and nose covered by her as she came on my face.
It went on and on until my hands were fists and my chest was on fire. An instinctive and biological fear too over me as my body begged for breath. When she finally pulled off of me my whole face was wet from her and my eyes stung for tears from trying to breath.

She slid down my body and kissed my lips and my face and whispered “good boy, good boy,” and I was in a heaven it is hard to explain. I felt used and aroused beyond believe and very much like a good toy for this beautiful woman.

She slid down further until she was straddling my waist. When my cock, which was so hard it hurt, came in contact with her body I jumped; as much as I could while being bound.

“You want me to fuck you now?” she said with a cocky happy grin.

“Yes,” I said, my voice sounding strange to my ears. It was full of desperation.

“Can you ask? Can you say please, or are you going to be a smartass again?”

The words came before I could even think about them.

“Please, please, fuck me, I need it so badly, please,” I begged.

There was no shame, only surprise at my need. She laughed and I felt her need just as strong as mine.

She pushed down and her wetness slipped against me and my cock was pushed right into the waiting heat of her. I felt like I was going to pass out.

There was still a newness in condomless sex. There was something forbidden in the slickness of her and the hypersensitivity of my cock. We’d been tested, we’d had conversations, she was on the pill, we were aware and secure in our risks.

Still two decades of commercials and fear and gossip made that moment of unencumbered penetration feel so taboo I thought I might come instantly.

She laid against me, her breasts on my chest, and pushed herself down on me hard. I felt, for a moment, so deep inside of her I couldn’t believe it. She ground down on me then, both of us gasping and crying out. The she rode me again, up and down, sitting up a bit on me and letting me watch the please wash over her face and her tits swing inches from my mouth.

She was lost in the rhythm and as much as I wanted to control myself I felt the slick heat enveloping me pulling the orgasm from me and soon the little panic came over me.

The fear was there, knowing even in our protection that coming in her was something bad. My mind wrestled with it even though I knew it wasn’t true. I wanted it to be true. I wanted it to be forbidden and wrong. I wanted to come inside of her and I wanted that to be bad.

The thought, along with the memories of her sitting on my face flashed in my head the way your life is supposed to before you die. Then my body took over.

My wrists burned as I pulled against the handcuffs. My muscles clenched as I thrust up again and again to meet her and then I was coming and coming and she knew it and bared down on me.

“Fill me up, come on, give it to me, give me your come, fuck me, do it,” she yelled into my ear, a barrage of dirty words.

It seemed to go on like that forever, but eventually I was gasping for breath and she was laying on top of me. My cock soft, but still inside of her.

She fumbled with something and I felt one hand freed, then the other. Then I held her and she kissed my neck.

“Tell me that was alright,” she whispered, sounding small and a little broken.

“It was perfect. It was more than perfect. You are amazing,” I said holding her tightly.

“Tell me you love me,” she demanded.

“I do, I love you,” I said and covered her face with kisses.

“I’m not bad?” she said, her voice cracking a little, the cruelty so far removed from her face that I could hardly remember it.

“You’re a good girl. I love you. You are mine. You are perfect,” I said, knowing what she needed and needing it too.

She cuddled into my and held me tightly.

“Thank you,” she said sweetly.

“Thank you,” I whispered back.

We ended up going out for coffee.

An Immodest Proposal

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